New Year, New Things

So here we are: 2012 and the year that many believe will mean the end of the world.  I personally believe this to be total bollocks but if in 12 months time the world is a baron wasteland like in the Fallout games then I will happily accept your "I told you so".  Anyway I am digressing from an actual post of any substance so I will press on.

It's been over a month since my last post and not much has changed within my life.  I still haven't had any luck with a job, I'm still receiving no replies from the jobs I apply for and I'm still spending a fair amount of time on the Xbox.  I suppose the only thing of substance or relevancy to have happened since I was last here is my Sister's wedding last month.  After about 4/5 years of being together and having a daughter last year my sister and her fiancée finally tied the knot in a small service.  Now it wasn't a big service or reception but it was a lovely time with all the family chipping in and helping with things like decorating the reception room, to making cakes, decorations and even making the wedding cake.  I didn't get blind drunk like I do at most weddings so actually got to appreciate it properly and had time during the evening to think, which is often a bad thing for me.  But it wasn't and gave me time to think about the mistake I could have made with my Ex who had I not left I could still be with and still engaged to, and a chance to think about my girlfriend, how we are and her little boy.

I got to thinking during the night and realised that I couldn't be in a better relationship right now.  I am so glad that I pursued her and I have no shame in saying this, but managing to get her to break up with her then boyfriend.  I know job wise the situation we are in is far from ideal but on a personal level I wouldn't want to be anywhere or be with anyone else.  I love this little family home/situation we have going on here and feel crap every time the Lil' Man has to go to his Dad's even though I know it would be unfair not to let him go.  I've always wanted my own kid and honestly thought that I would be the first of my Mum's three children to have a kid but alas I am the last but I don't feel bad about that, knowing that I have a child at home who I care for and love as if he was my own.  He may wind me up no end and drive me to the verge of shutting in a dark room when he screams in my ear but I love him all the same and wouldn't change him for the world.

I could so easily have still been in a terrible and unhappy situation, spending my days sinking further and further into depression but I guess you can say that I've had a lucky escape, even if a large part of it was my own doing.  I've never told her this but my girlfriend has played a massive part in saving me from my depression and I am fully aware that depression never fully goes away, but I am confident that while we are together depression for me will always remain a part of my past.

Well this was never meant to be a personal blog but I started writing and this is where I stopped. Either way in light of the mention of the wedding, here a picture of me and my nephew from the reception.