Memory

This is a bit of a random & out of the blue blog but one that I feel like writing so here goes.

Memory is a strange thing, you can have good memories, bad memories & random memories.  There are some you can remember, some you forget & some that you'll simply never forget.  I don't know about any of you but I find that I mostly seem to remember the bad ones, the memories that have an affect on my personality, my decisions, the way I approach certain situations & ultimately stop me from doing certain things.  I have one particular memory that is always playing on my mind at the moment, a memory that still holds some hope behind it & ultimately affects future relationships that may be on the cards.  As much as I try I can't seem to forget it & its a memory I need to forget or work out a way of getting around it & not letting it affect my decisions as this memory is the reason I'm probably going to be single for a long while.  I still hold the hope that the person related to this memory will get back in contact with me on a regular basis & the bad memory turns into a good one but although I have hope it isn't a large amount of hope because I feel that I have pushed this person away.

I know that this post is useless as I don't think I'll get past this anytime soon, but if you have any ideas please feel free to let me know.  Anyway I don't know if this makes any sense at all but I can't be bothered to go back over it so it will have to stay as it is.